Send Flowers to Myself

“So I bought the flowers. I can’t remember exactly what type of flowers I bought the first time, but they were likely daisies — maybe carnations — and almost certainly white, but maybe pink or red. I bought all these types of flowers at one point or another over the months. I bought some white lilies as well. Yellow daisies and roses in countless shades were also in the mix. I fell in love with white hydrangeas; I would try to make them last for longer than two weeks. These flowers also helped me keep track of time. As the months wore on, I started counting the time at home using grocery trips; I could distinguish the days by the drooping of petals and drying out of stems or the brittleness of weakening leaves. I know so many people who don’t like flowers because they die like this. I found some beauty in it, instead.”