Singing

“yesterday i performed for the first time in front of a crowd of about 25 people. i’ll be honest, it was hell. my whole body was shaking, my heart was beating so fast and my voice was shaking the entire time i was singing. lowkey i blacked out while singing because i don’t remember a lot of it. probably the absolute worst performance someone could give. but i think the worst is over and i can only get better from here and the next time i sing in front of people ill be a little bit better and hopefully a little less nervous”

“I am still panicking on the inside, thinking there is no possible way I am going to be able to sing with all these people staring at me. Then I hear this voice, which sounds a lot like mine, at just the right time: “Look at me, I will never pass for a perfect bride, or a perfect daughter, can it be, I’m not meant to play this part…” At first, I do not know who is singing. Then I realize I am the voice singing the words to my song. I am actually singing! I have done it! My hopes soar and I realize that although it is frightening, and I did not think I could do it before, I could. [...] The butterflies have returned in my stomach, full force. However, my voice does not listen to my brain. I keep right on going, keep on singing, and she picks back up when she finds her place again on the sheet music. Relief flows through me.”