Acrobatics

“I just need to vent. I'm F23 and have recently started acrobatics classes as an adult. I'm not the most athletic person but it's just something I've always wanted to try. And damn is it hard, but not for the reason I imagined it would be. It's making me confront my fear of letting go-physically and mentally. I realised a bit part of this sport is a mental thing. It feels like therapy. I go expecting to do a couple flips and I'm met with my fear of letting go. My overthinking. Holding myself back because of fear of failure. I could probably do double the stuff I can do now if I had the mind of my instructor. I'm not an anxious person by any means, but when Im doing handstands (or attempting to) my brain is constantly telling me I'm going to fall. When I'm jumping off blocks my brain exaggerates it as if I'm jumping off a cliff. I can't keep my eyes open whilst doing flips... This one I'm not sure why. I'm scared. I know I shouldn't be. I don't want so see the outcome? I just have to let go. I know this. But it's so frustrating knowing what you have to do and also knowing your brain won't let you.”